and then down again

Signing my lease was a very momentous occasion for me. It was my first lease ever - my first taste of that infamous and previously theoretical "real world" I've been blogging about. We finally heard back from the elusive Dante, the landlord for my hopeful place, on Saturday morning. He was all for signing me for the apartment, which was a relief. He said a lot about hoping for a quiet tenant, and I discovered that being an ex-Don does a lot for your credibility as a quality tenant.

At about 1PM we arrived back at the apartment building (occasionally referred to as Dante's Paradise because I'm just that cool) and met the real life Dante. He was super young, and super awesome, and super professional, and was wearing pink shoes. We went over the details and then I SIGNED THE LEASE!!!! He's going to e-mail me the dimensions of the apartment so I can start planning my decor :D. After taking some neighbourhood scenery pictures (to be posted at a later date), mom and I returned to the trendy neighbourhood shopping district and ate at Browns Social House.

This is when the enthusiasm transformed into emo. My very first thought in this restaurant/bar was I can't wait to bring Todd and 'Tale to this place, followed by the realization that, if at all, this will only happen once. I got so sad. I so badly want to deposit those two and many others into Vancouver. I feel like it's where I belong but I also don't feel like I belong anywhere without them. It is so, so bittersweet - emphasis on the bitter. I don't know how I'm going to be able to handle it. I feel lonely when none of them are even online, what will I do when that's all I have?