i think i can

So apparently this job dream is a true story. I will essentially be coordinating a new business in Vancouver. I'm gaining more and more confidence in my ability to do it, I just have to keep reminding myself that I'm not a kid with expendable income just working to keep her parents happy anymore. I shall have an adult job with business responsibilities.

BUSINESS responsibilities?! Did I EVER think I would be having business responsibilities?!?

I can picture it happening though. The nerd in me pictures the charts and the files necessary for good matches, the neat conversations with parents and staff, and even going back to my Don skills to deal with a complaint. It's EXCITING. I just have to keep reminding myself I'm completely capable of doing it. It's almost like an internalized ageism thing. It's like sometimes I think I can't do it just because of my age, but that's ridiculous. Positive thinking is half the work :).

What sucks the most, kind of, is that I will probably be going two weeks earlier than expected. Technically they'd love to start the service July 1st, but that's impossible for me. I will be going around the 18th probably (Bill and I still have to work out the details) in order to start coordinating interviews and orientation for staff. The cool thing is that they're going to cover my living expenses for those two weeks since my lease doesn't start until August 1st.

This is the real world.


In other news, I'm super excited that my Grad party is tomorrow!!! I'm really sad 'Tale won't be able to be there, Daisy too, but it's still going to be awesome. It's kind of weird - for most people it'll be my good bye party too! It feels all too fast. I can't even afford furniture yet! I picture myself in my bachelor apartment with hardwood floors, wall to wall windows, surrounded by suitcases and sleeping on piles of laundry when I'm not hunched over my laptop on the floor in one corner. Or on my cell phone dealing with CLIENTS!!!!

Eek.