how do you know?

Happily, this post has nothing to do with love, as the title might suggest.
BUT I do not know how explicitly I will explain what it is really about. That is still to be determined.

I'm doing a lot of reflecting lately and I just wonder... how do you "learn" or "discover" something that is supposed to be an inherent truth. Sure, if you know anything about my academic life, you know I spit in the face of things such as "inherent truths". But if you're supposed to just know something about yourself, but you don't, how do you get there? There are a couple things that I'm referring to with this, and they're essential to work through if this reflection is going to get anywhere. But I don't know how you learn them or whatever. You can know so many things about yourself but how do you get them all to connect and relate.

Maybe it's not something I have to figure out about myself but about life?

We'll see.